Monday, July 31, 2006

walk on

Volcano
*Damien Rice*

Don't hold yourself like that, you'll hurt your knees
I kissed your mouth and back, but that's all I need
Don't build your world around
Volcanoes melt you down
What I am to you is not real
What I am to you, you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for the sea
Don't throw yourself like that in front of me
I kissed your mouth, your back
Is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around
Volcanoes melt me down
Is just what I'm going through, this is nothing new
Just another phase of finding what I really need
Is what makes me bleed
And like a new disease, [h]e's still too young to treat
Volcanoes melt me down
[H]e's still too young
I kissed your mouth
You do not need me

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Disclosure

Reason Why
*Rachel Yamagata*

I think about how it might have been
We'd spend our days traveling
It's not that I don't understand you
It's not that I don't want to be with you
But you only wanted me
The way you wanted me

So, I will head out alone and hope for the best
And we can hang our heads down as we skip the goodbyes
You can tell the world what you want them to hear
I've got nothing left to lose, my dear
So, I'm up for the little white lies
But you and I know the reason why
I'm gone, and you're still there

I'll buy a magazine searching for your face
From coast to coast, or whatever I find my place
I'll track you on the radio
And I'll sign your list in a different name
But as close as I come to you
It's not the same

So, I will head out alone and hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back and say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I know the reason why
I'm gone, and you're still there

So, steal the show and do your best
To cover the tracks that I have left
I wish you well and hope you find whatever you're looking for
The way I might've changed my mind
But you only showed me the door

So, I will head out alone and hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back and say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I know the reason why

Monday, July 10, 2006

62nd

How do you celebrate something that won’t ever be?
I get it, you don’t. You just keep on remembering.

I was staring at the full moon earlier before I started writing this.
I feel you. No big surprise. Your absence is such a glaring presence…

That you’re never coming back is something
we would never overcome.
By and by, I guess we have somewhat just gotten used to it.
And so we walk on. And we dance, dance, dance...
But you’ll never ever be forgotten.

Anyway, let's not get too sentimental. I'm sure you're making fun of me now. What I really wanted to say is happy birthday, whatever that means to you now. We miss you so much. You better still know us when we get there. I demand a grand salubong!

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Fourth of July Hullabaloo

Surprisingly, I had fun last Fourth of July. It wasn't so much about the fireworks, nor the venue (sorry but I've had my first in DC where the celeb was really awesome, epsc. for someone like me who only witness that kind of fireworks display at Enchanted Kingdom or after the UP Lantern Parade). It was mainly because of the people who were present. A general ensemble of mixed nationalities. They were fun to watch and to hear them talk in their native tongues. I was surrounded by young Pinoys, I almost felt like a teenager again. I think I was the oldest in our group haha, and they were just kind enough to tell me I don't look my age anyway. Also, it reminnded me of our classic new year celeb. Fireworks & firecrackers on the street. Obviously, it's not allowed so when the cops came, it's really fun to watch these kids' scattered arses everywhere.

Here's the all Filipino cast (oh, Jeff's from Dominican Republic ata) as we shouted "sagad"

Below: the remaining guests (this was around 2:30am)


Then we started reminiscing our days in Pinas. Like drinking soda in a plastic with a straw that flattens easily you have to suck hard; loving cheese pimiento which, although we have here costs like $7 a bottle (carlo was telling us he reprimands his bro when he sees him 'scooping' it instead of just getting just a bit and spreading it on pandesal); how they don't have santol at sinigwelas here; playing with spiders; using "tabo"; how we don't have shrinks back home nor this post-pregnancy depression thingy, among others. And how we all agreed that oftentimes, you get discriminated against by fellow pinoys. But then again, it's just a matter of dealing with it.

It's funny hearing these second gen. pinoys trying hard to speak tagalog. But at least they were trying and they can still understand. It's been awhile since I heard "patungo" in a sentence (meaning "going to") wen we usually say "punta na ko". But seriously, I am better with tagalog now that I'm here than before. For example, we say "tignan mo yung naka-kayumanggi dun sa sulok..." I mean, we don't usually use that, we say 'naka-brown' right away. Pero para hindi ka nila maintindihan. I know what you're thinking. But...they too can alienate us when they speak their language. I am just glad we were taught in English and at the same time, I regret that they abolished Spanish (they have a lot of span-speaking people here too, it wold have been swell if i've known their language). When you're in a foreign land, it abviously doesn't hurt to have a full command of the language they use. But I recall one time at the elevator, we we talking in tagalog and this all-american guy talked to us in perfect tagalog asking if "ma-traffic pa ba sa katipunan?" Well, he taught in ADMU pala.

Capping the night was our weird encounter with a stray dog. Walking towards the car, there was this huge dog following us. Man alive, two blocks and it kept on going...Scared the hell out of me, we were close to pushing each other towards the car to escape it. Thank God we all managed to come home in one piece!

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

be safe...

My condolences to the Enriquezes. They have been left behind by Rea, their youngest child, on the first of July. She was our classmate and our good friend. {damn, to use the verb "was" still gives me the creeps...}

here she was, enjoying the sun...
I think not many people were fond of her, because she seemed flirtatious and unconventional. What with her funkiness and fashion sense. But truth to be known, she was probably one of the many misjudged and misunderstood persons in campus back then. She had a beauty to flaunt. She could have passed for a ramp model. She had many suitors and admirers. That’s the beautiful Rea, on the outside. But to us who have known her (I since we were in grade school because we were neighbors), she was a good daughter, a loving niece and a crazy friend. She was the epitome of someone who celebrates life and enjoys it to the fullest. She was a very kikay and jolly woman. She was life of the party. She loves hosting them in fact. We would miss her. Our highschool days wouldn't have been as much fun without her contributions/suggestions. And even thereafter--since we always savor our high school memories even now as we go on our separate lives--our get-togethers wouldn't be the same without her. Rea, who had always been a very towering (literally and metaphorically speaking) figure in our so-called journey through life. Seriously.

I think nobody had thought, initially, that she would go first. What with her vivacity and zest for life. Sadly, it's a fact to accept and reckon with. We could only rest in the thought that God knows best, and He has given her rest.

Be happy again my friend, and have a safe trip. Now the rainbow is within your grasp! For us whom you left behind, we are keeping the spirit….